its so annoying that my internet still wont work! but it's good in a sense cos i actually get some work done.. sooo much work to do.. so little time.. first week of hols are gone.. having a sleepover at Ern Chee's place tonight! then gonna go to Glenelg for breakfast.. yipee! gonna have to rush to get there in time.. i have to catch the last train which leaves at 6.41pm.. it's almost 3 now.. gonna submit my assignment.. another one due on monday.. oh dear.. sunday will probably be spent in the city.. church in the morning.. lunch then shopping then evening service.. Mike Guglimuchi is gonna be sharing.. i super duper must go! yup.. 5 weeks till i go home.. hopefully.. lots of holiadys planned! can't wait.. cambodia, malaysia, italy, hong kong.. woo hoo! enjoy the weekend! =)

Lift me up

this is for all my friends.. especially my mum, abbie, amanda and derek.. thank you for always being there for me.. ahhh.. i super duper love this song.. :)

there's something wrong with my laptop and i dont know how to fix it.. at least now it's sort of working.. i can access itunes and microsoft word.. which is basically all that i need.. but i miss the internet.. but i suppose it's good in a way cos then i dont waste hours and hours aimlessly surfing the net going absolutely gaga over stuff i don't really need.. well, i suppose i'll just have to head down to the malls more often instead - to compensate.. lol.. agh! i'll just stop shopping altogether.. haha.. i can ok! i know anyone who reads this will be like, "yeah right!".. haha.. well, i'll try my best.. like charlene said just now.. tahan now then shop when i get back to s'pore.. sounds good.. haha.. to make things worse, i'm sick as well.. been sick for a week already.. it's horrible! cos all the medication is making me soooooo drowsy.. and i have assignments to do.. i've got a very very very very long list of stuff to do during the 2 week break.. i have to finish all of that if i wanna go back to s'pore early.. i suppose that should be motivation in itself, but the list scares me.. it's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long! it's unbelievable.. plus, i'm trying to train for stan chartered.. i know i can run the 10ks if i want to.. cos i've done it before.. but then i wanna work on my timing.. i'm happy with the time i clocked yesterday, so now i've gotta work on being consistent.. and it doesnt help that my knee hurts like hell right now! annoying! oh! and i met Jeff and Esther-Ann on monday for lunch.. was nice seeing them again.. Esther-Ann is as cute as always.. we bumped into Pastor Nick Resce in the restaurant! haha.. jeff said hi to him and then he turned to me and went "i know that girl".. haha.. hilarious.. the weather has gone haywire too! it was so warm on saturday i was in a summer dress.. and then now it's cold.. everyone's got their jackets on again.. i want the warmth to come back.. i wanna go to the beach and get roasted!! haha.. ok.. this post is really unorganised.. i'm waiting to get well.. and maybe then my laptop will get well too.. :) fingers crossed..

ok.. here are a portion of the photos from Mao's birthday lunch at Scoozis on sat.. i love love love scoozis.. haha.. we were walking down rundell and we saw all these kids busking.. and this girl was probably the youngest one we saw.. she's so cute but so tiny.. i just dont think it's right for kids to be out busking.. but who am i to judge.. so anyway.. lunch with the girls was great! had heaps of fun as usual.. im getting really drowsy from the meds.. been sick for almost a week already.. hai.. oh well.. i'll let the pics do the talking for me.. there are still a million more pics that i've yet to see.. they're all on different people's cameras.. so i've gotta wait for them to upload them.. but here are those from my cam.. and a couple from maos.. have a great week.. i know derek wont.. he's sick and he's gotta go back into the jungle for another week! he just got back to civilisation 2 days ago la! haha.. oh well.. cheaper phone bills = 1 new dress.. muahahaha.. just kidding.. :)


XinHui, me and mao


Desirey, Xh, Charlene, mao and i

Happy Birthday to you! Alethea baked her a New York cheesecake!

the cake was sooooooooooooooo good la!
Charlene, me, Xh and mao.. i love these girls!!

we tried to take a s'porean family photo pic.. we weren't supposed to smile.. haha..

s'porean girls plus desirey and alethea..

so.. i'm the girl of the house now.. my aunt left yesterday and will be away for 6 weeks at the very least.. so till then, i'm in-charge of cooking, cleaning, laundry, grocery shopping and everything else.. well, i suppose that's not so bad.. i mean, up until now i've been doing that, except for the cooking part.. i used to cook only when i felt like it or when my aunt was at work.. but now i have to cook for 3 people everyday! oh my! i suppose i dont trust myself to cook for the next 6 weeks.. it's not that i cant cook or anything, cos i can.. haha.. im more worried about putting on weight.. having experienced the freedom of cooking and eating anything that i felt like last year, i have seen how much weight i can put on if i make the wrong choices.. and besides, it's not just about cooking for myself, there are 2 other people who're dependant on me..

i've been obsessed with ebay over the past few days, and it has got to stop! i bought a dress and there are a few more that i'm considering but then i'm gonna stop.. i need to stop.. im addicted to it.. shopping online is fun, just browsing through all the clothes and dresses they have up for sale.. i'm addicted/obsessed with dresses too.. haha.. i seem to be obsessed with a couple of things these days.. ebay, dresses, weight loss.. haha.. i really hate the way my body is right now.. i look at abbie and she looks gorgeous.. she's so nice and thin.. abbie and i used to be able to share clothes when we lots younger, but now.. sigh.. i keep wondering what would have happened if i didn't come to australia.. would i still be as thin as i was then? i remember that before i came here i was trying to get my weight down to 48-50kg.. now i'm trying to get my weight down down down down! i found out last night that i'm heavier than derek la! wth.. how on earth did i become like this? i know.. it's all the chocolates and ice-cream and over-eating from last year.. i can't wear my jeans that were loose for me before i came here.. i've taken to wearing loose clothing so that it covers and hides all my layers of fat.. i remember that when i went back to s'pore at the end of last year i was really really really fat.. and ivan came up to me and said, "you're fat".. i was like, thanks.. people keep joking with me about my weight and i go along with it in good humor, but what they say with joking intentions i take seriously.. i mean, there has to be a basis for those comments right? they aren't randomly constructed ideas.. i don't even wanna look at photos from my eynesbury graduation ceremony because i look horrible! i'm literally popping out the dress.. i wore that same dress for christmas 2005 and it looked really nice.. but then a year on it was awful.. spring is here now, and then summer will follow soon after.. but i'll probably be back in s'pore by then.. and that means lots of time will be spent on the beach.. and i dont wanna be the fat one.. i feel soooo insecure about the way i look at the moment.. i'm not used to it and i wanna feel confident again.. but at what cost? will i even be satisfied when i lose some weight? or will i just keep on losing weight till i'm all skin and bones? i used to think that people like abbie and deborah were way too thin and i said i never wanted to be like that.. but now i find that image more and more appealing.. i know it sounds silly and ridiculous, trust me, i feel dumb for thinking that way.. cos i know that that's unhealthy.. but there's something in me that's even stronger and is over-riding all rational thoughts.. 55 days till i go back.. can i drop 8kg by then? i hope so.. if i lose even more better yet.. it seems so impossible.. sigh..

oh well.. back to the real world now.. time to hang out the laundry and to get ready for uni.. got a doctors appointment with the doctor on campus at 230.. silly weather... making me sick! :( derek's gone for some out field thingy, so i foresee cheaper phone bills over the next few days! haha.. oh! i could use the money i save on my phone bills to buy another dress! woo hoo! and i've gotta prepare for a presentation that's on thursday.. it's worth 20% of my final grade for that topic.. but it should be fine.. have a great week.. ciao for now..

p.s.: 1 day till Abbie's birthday.. remember to wish her!!! and flood her with presents!!! :)

i'm so totally addicted to online shopping.. i've spent the past 2 days glued to my laptop browsing the web.. and i found the chanel wallet that i really liked.. but it's wayyyyyyyyyyyyy to expensive.. so i've moved on.. i was screaming when i found it.. and poor derek who i was on the phone with at that time almost went deaf! haha.. sorry darling! but it's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo pretty.. hehe.. so anyway.. i went for a drive on friday.. drove to Noarlunga.. went down to the beach with my cousin ross.. then he drove us home.. i was so exhausted la! haha.. im really grateful that he's back and that he's helping me with my driving.. cos i need to have at least 50 hours of driving before i can get my licence.. i'm praying hard that that'll happen before i go back to s'pore.. but i don't think so.. cos there's not much time left and i've still got a huge number of hours to complete.. oh well.. fingers crossed :)

oh! and i'm coming home even earlier!!! haha.. i feel really bad cos all my friends are staying like 20+ november.. and guess when i'm coming back.. initially i was planning on leaving adelaide on the 1st of nov, in order to arrive on the 2nd of nov so i could go for derek's ord parade.. but now i'm coming home even earlier! woo hoo! about a month earlier than the rest of my friends.. i can't wait.. but it also means that i really need to finish all my work way before hand.. so.. i should start now i suppose.. after i have something to eat i suppose.. hungry again! haha.. and why oh why did i sign up for stan chartered? ugh! oh well.. what's done is done.. i suppose i should start training harder for it then.. have a great and blessed week! i'm going back to church for evening service in a while.. oh no! we're having roast for dinner! am i gonna miss that? hope not.. hmm.. bye!