i don't really know what's happening and i think you're just as clueless.. prehaps we got used to not being a part of each other's lives.. i wanted things to work, so i kept holding on, hoping that things would be better tommorrow.. but tomorrow would come and things never changed.. maybe they did change; maybe we drifted even further apart.. yeah, that sounds about just right.. i felt like i was fighting a losing battle but i believed the things you told me before.. maybe you don't deal well with the whole long-distance thing.. maybe things will change when i get back.. but somehow i don't think they will though.. everytime i feel like giving up i think maybe i should just wait till i get back before i decide.. but then i think, what's the point? i think we both knew this was coming.. it's not the outcome i hoped for, but who knows.. maybe things will change.. i dunno..

i think it's time for me to let go..