lost..

so, my laptop is with Jenn Yong - he's gonna fix it for me.. try to fix it at least.. if it's even fixable.. i'm praying that it is.. hehe.. thanks Jenn Yong.. :)

so.. i've been feeling so lost without my laptop.. like i dunno what to do with my time.. i realise that i'm too attached to my laptop - NO GOOD! haha.. so without it around, i have found that i do infact have a lot of time on my hands.. so what else can i do besides study.. haha.. well, i have been studying.. although i'm behind by 2 chapters at the moment, i believe i'll catch up soon enough.. thursday is my first paper - Language and Communication.. it's a 4 hour 20 min paper altogether.. sooo long! haha.. thankfully there's an hour lunch break inbetween.. friday i've got economics.. that's the one i'm most worried about.. i'll pass it, but i wanna do more than just past it.. i wanna ace it! haha.. not possible.. well, with God all things are possible! haha.. we'll see..

so anyway, today was a horrible day! most probably the worst day i've had here so far! haha.. i woke up only to find that the chicken meat i had left out to thaw had been thrown away! yes, you read right - thrown away!!
it went like this:
"where's my chicken?"
and sam was like "oh.. that's your chicken? it's in the bin.. " and he was so casual about it..
me: "WHAT?! what do you mean in the bin? who threw it away?"
sam: "oh, it was there for a few days already so the lady threw it away.."
me: "it was NOT there for a few days.. i just took it out last night!"
then the lady happened to appear.. she's the cleaner here.. well not really.. she's staying here, but working cleaning the hostel in order to pay for her rent.. then she said she threw it out cos it was there all day!
me: "no it wasn't! i only took it out last night"
she: "yes, it was sitting there in the sun all of yesterday and today.."
me: "this is unbelieveable! i took it out last night.. not yesterday afternoon.."
she: "yes you did.. it smelt funny and i didn't want you to get sick so i threw it away.."
me: "i took it out last night.. not in the day..."
i seriously felt like i was talking to the wall.. as though i didn't know when i took it out like that.. so fustrating! and it was a huge pack of meat.. and i know it wont go off overnight.. cos it takes a loooong time to defrost.. anyways... she said she'll give me the money for it.. and put $3 on the table and walked off.. i told her i didnt want her money.. so i left it there.. i was fuming mad la! she threw away a $12 pack of chicken.. which was gonna last me for a week, maybe more.. i was gonna make thai chicken and char siu out of it.. but oh wells.. plans are ruined.. gotta buy more chicken now.. i suppose i do have the reason to be angry - but that's not what God desires of me and it isn't how i should have reacted.. on reflection, my behaviour was horrible and totally out of proportion.. i normally wouldn't do that, even if i was angry i wouldn't show it like that.. must be PMS! haha.. excuse!! lol.. yeah, but i suppose i did over-react.. it's just sooo fustrating.. but then for some reason i thought of my Jie jie.. i dunno why.. i thought - what would jie do? she wouldn't react like this.. she'll be more calm about it.. but i just couldn't... and i suppose part of me didn't want to forgive her either.. so i stormed about the hostel for a while, till i couldn't stand being at home any longer - then i went to coles.. was good to get out of the house... been cooped up for sooo long.. my econs teacher reckons that stress causes people to be on a short-fuse.. i suppose its true.. but its not a valid reason.. there never should be a reason as to why we fail to show compassion and patience to someone..

i've been waiting for a transaction to go through my account and it was supposed to have gone through on the last day of october.. it's a automatic thing, so it should have gone through.. but it didn't.. it went through for the past few months, and this month as well.. so i couldn't understand why.. so i went to the bank, and they realised that there was something wrong.. so now they're gonna find out why then they'll get back to me.. hai.. waste of time.. haha..

oh wells.. i'm off to study.. tomorrow will be a better day... leaving you with this poem thingy.. don't know who it's by though.. have a great week people.. ciao!

whatever your cross
whatever your pain
there will always be sunshine
after the rain

prehaps you may stumble
prehaps even fall
but God's always there
to help you through it all